"Here is my secret. It is very simple: It is only with the heart that one can see rightly; what is essential is invisible to the eye.."- Antoine de Saint Exupéry

Archive for January, 2013

Spark

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I started my day as usual, checking all the orders, prices, deliveries, all the things I had missed the afternoon before.
My eyes turned towards her empty desk. So strange that she, the one keeping everyone terrorised, the ruthless boss, she was not there… But she survived, I thought.
I closed my eyes and saw again the movie of yesterday’s afternoon. She cutting her wrists in the bathroom. Me stumbling over her. My eyes meeting her unhappy eyes. And that deep feeling that in the middle of her lifetime crisis I saw for the first time a spark of humanity.

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100 words

memyselfandela, 2013

this is my entry for the 100 Words challenge  of this week, on Velvet Verbosity.

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Thought

Life is an endless journey and lesson. And if there’s one lesson that marked my life is how much the loss, lack or presence of love can influence a destiny.

This thought goes to all those who have experienced or feel right now the extreme lack of love and apreciation in their life. This feels very heavy on  an unloved and empty heart. There are many out there thinking of suicide , thinking low of themselves or forgetting all the beauty of life because there’s no hand to hold them, nobody to tell them  a good word, because they have just lost someone that meant the world to them.

So if you happen to read my post and if it reaches your heart, if you have no love, no hand to hold you, no good word all day long, here’s my love, here’s my hand. You are beautiful. Life is beautiful. It takes only a moment and the sincere love of a honest heart to lift you up.


My Soul Is Silence

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So I’m quiet
And my soul is silence
The quiet of all quiet
And the silence within silences.

And my eyes are closed
Closed upon my heart
So that I can see,
See better who you are.

And sometimes fear screams
For my running away,
While my love says
To stay.

You hold the key
For my soul.
If you hear my loud silence
I will.
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memyselfandela, 2013


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Silence

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Music for My Heart

“Well I was moving at the speed of sound.
Head-spinning, couldn’t find my way around, and
Didn’t know that I was going down.
Yeah, yeah.
Where I’ve been, well it’s all a blur.
What I was looking for, I’m not sure.
Too late and didn’t see it coming.
Yeah, yeah.

And then I crashed into you,
And I went up in flames.
Could’ve been the death of me,
But then you breathed your breath in me.
And I crashed into you,
Like a runaway train.
You will consume me,
But I can’t walk away.

Somehow, I couldn’t stop myself.
I just wanted to know how it felt.
Too strong, I couldn’t hold on.
Yeah, yeah.
Now I’m just tryin’ to make some sense
Out of how and why this happened.
Where we’re heading, there’s just no knowing.
Yeah, yeah.

And then I crashed into you,
And I went up in flames.
Could’ve been the death of me,
But then you breathed your breath in me.
And I crashed into you,
Like a runaway train.
You will consume me,
But I can’t walk away.

From your face, your eyes
Are burning to me.
You saved me, you gave me
Just what I need.
Oh, just what I need.

And then I crashed into you,
And I went up in flames.
Could’ve been the death of me,
But then you breathed your breath in me.
And I crashed into you,
Like a runaway train.
You will consume me,
But I can’t walk away.

And then I crashed into you,
And then I crashed into you,
And then I crashed into you,
And then I crashed into you,
And I crashed into you,
Like a runaway train.
You will consume me,
But I can’t walk away”


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Good Night

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Black & White

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Whole

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Half of me cries
Half of you smiles
We meet somewhere in between
Half of you light
Half of me night
None of us
Able to ever be
Without the other one
Whole

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memyselfandela, 2013


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The Laughing Heart

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Cookie of the day

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Silence

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As a matter of…cat

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Eternal Love

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No matter if I’ll need to give them back again
I carry you within me in my frail bones and heart
I live and love you daily, with light, dark, joy and pain
Our love’s eternal, nothing will break us apart

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memyselfandela, 2013

 


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Thought

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Finding You

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I would have got born and died just to hold you in this arms of mine
Till the search would have ended upon our chance to be fine
Beyond broken wings and horizons of endless unspoken pain
If I would have needed a million lives just to find you again

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memyselfandela, 2013


Music for My Heart


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Black & White

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Kiss

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tapping against my window
a patter of distant thoughts
coming from you
streaming from me
as they crash on the window
all fades and
we quietly kiss
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memyselfandela, 2013

 


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Silence

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Music for My Heart


Good Night

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Holding Hand

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You’ll hear so many stories about love.
But I say: don’t believe any.
They say love is beautiful,
That it gives butterflies in the stomach,
Love is passion, love is great, love defeats all demons…
Love has many shapes, can come from a child, brother, mother, friend, lover…
I think words mean nothing.
Love should be no lie, no forgotten promise, no fantasy, no dream.
Love is something tangible.
Whoever loves you will not make you cry or suffer
And will never stand the thought of hurting you.
Love is no losing game. It’s just the ever present holding hand.
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100 words

memyselfandela, 2013


Thought

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As I ponder in the middle of my night
On the weight of this world
I would spread myself into pieces
To become one with the universe
Hoping to find there all my answers.

I would make myself a field of dandelions
Scattered by the winds towards all skylines…

Words I have said will never return to me
Countless downs and feathers
That I let float in the air from the tip of the highest mountain…

Sadness I have felt will never turn into happiness
If I would make myself tears
And lose myself in the vast ocean…

What would it serve me to be unique
If I lost the meaning of life?
We are all one, interconnected
Nothing belongs to us
We are each an atom of eternity.

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memyselfandela, 2013


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Silence

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