I started my day as usual, checking all the orders, prices, deliveries, all the things I had missed the afternoon before.
My eyes turned towards her empty desk. So strange that she, the one keeping everyone terrorised, the ruthless boss, she was not there… But she survived, I thought.
I closed my eyes and saw again the movie of yesterday’s afternoon. She cutting her wrists in the bathroom. Me stumbling over her. My eyes meeting her unhappy eyes. And that deep feeling that in the middle of her lifetime crisis I saw for the first time a spark of humanity.
this is my entry for the 100 Words challenge of this week, on Velvet Verbosity.
Life is an endless journey and lesson. And if there’s one lesson that marked my life is how much the loss, lack or presence of love can influence a destiny.
This thought goes to all those who have experienced or feel right now the extreme lack of love and apreciation in their life. This feels very heavy on an unloved and empty heart. There are many out there thinking of suicide , thinking low of themselves or forgetting all the beauty of life because there’s no hand to hold them, nobody to tell them a good word, because they have just lost someone that meant the world to them.
So if you happen to read my post and if it reaches your heart, if you have no love, no hand to hold you, no good word all day long, here’s my love, here’s my hand. You are beautiful. Life is beautiful. It takes only a moment and the sincere love of a honest heart to lift you up.
So I’m quiet
And my soul is silence
The quiet of all quiet
And the silence within silences.
And my eyes are closed
Closed upon my heart
So that I can see,
See better who you are.
And sometimes fear screams
For my running away,
While my love says
You hold the key
For my soul.
If you hear my loud silence